I have been working with orphans in Cambodia since 2002. I have been the international director of Heritage House for eight years. I have dealt with many Khmer children and youth and I knew what was going on inside of his mind. He was afraid that he had disgraced himself and he was afraid of "losing face" with the staff and other children. So, instead of asking for forgiveness, he was going to save his dignity and be kicked out of the house.
His name is Dyna. He is 14 years old and he enjoys playing computer video games with his friends at the internet cafe. He is doing an internship at a local moto repair shop while on summer holiday from school. His boss had let him off an hour early and he had gone to play games with his friends. One hour rolled into the next until finally it was 7 pm and he wondering where the time went.
Instead of returning to the house and telling the dorm mothers what had happened, he went to a near-by field and spent the night alone. During the night, we prayed, searched, and worried about Dyna. The next morning he awoke and went back to the internet cafe. Vutha and Srey Oun found him there sometime that day.
So here we sat, trying to decide what to do with Dyna in the Heritage House office. As I look back over how he arrived here, I am reminded of my own life. As you hear his story, you might be reminded of yours as well. It starts with one bad decision. We do something that seems right in the moment, but it is not long before what felt right is now turning out to be, well, not right. It is draining our time, our energy, and taking us away from the things that matter - our Father, our family, our real friends, and our focus. The next thing you know, one hour is two, two hours are three and now it is dark. Its much harder to find your way home in the dark. Instead of going back to the place that is safe, we find ourselves alone in a field. We are cold, afraid, and scared while everyone at home is warm, secure, and sleeping peacefully.
Dyna was afraid of what Vutha and I would think of him. He thought that in his sin, we were going to be harsh with him. The truth is, we were both teenagers once. We know what it is like to make unwise decisions and although we would not excuse his transgression, we were more worried about his safety and would surely forgive him if he asked. The fathers in his life were a safe place. We love Dyna and see the potential in him. Where he saw failure, we saw immaturity. Where he felt hopeless, we felt hopeful. Where he felt defeat, we felt confident that victory was near.
Like Dyna, we have a Father who is a safe place for us. When we make mistakes, when we absolutely blow it, when we find ourselves lost, alone, and cold, we can run to our Father and He will receive us. All we have to do is admit that we sinned and He will be there with open arms to receive us. Jesus told a pretty good story about lost sons in Luke 15. If you find yourself lost, pick up a Bible and read it for yourself. You might be surprised what your Father's response will be if you come back home.
Dyna finally broke down and asked everyone to forgive him. He was surprised at our reaction and acceptance. His "friends" had told him that we would be mad and that he would never be forgiven. He was welcomed not only by us, but also by the other children. We were all worried about him. The other children were thrilled that he was back home as well. If you are away from home, I suspect that you will be shocked at how the "other children" respond to you when you return. The Father sets the tone for that, and as His children look to Him and see His concern and love, they respond accordingly.
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins
and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
1 John 1:9
